today i am thankful for my amazing husband. ben makes me laugh when i want to cry, lets me cry on his shoulder, pushes my buttons, tells me i’m beautiful when i wake up in the morning and before i go to bed at night, makes me explain myself, and loves me every day, no matter what. he says that he loves me more every day, and is unsure how that is possible. when i am at my lowest, he takes my face in his hands and says, “sasha, i don’t know if you know this, but i NEED you in my life. you are my partner. you are my heart. you have things to offer that i don’t. i need you.”
on top of all of that, ben is the best father for sophie i could imagine. he has gone through life as a “sick kid.” a kid who was deemed fragile, one who would never last as long as he has. he sees things from a perspective that i never could. he understands her in a way that i never will. we balance one another as her parents. i am so glad i have him to help me raise her.
by no means is he perfect. he and sophie fight. a lot. they are two sides of the same coin and love to push one another’s buttons. in the end, sophie loves her dad so very, very much and wishes he could be with us all of the time.
he also pushes my buttons. sometimes he brings work home and is frustrated. sometimes he zones out. sometimes he nitpicks after i’ve had a hard day and i holler. (hey, i’m not perfect either!) when i holler, he gets petulant, and we both melt down. in the end, one of us remembers that we are best friends and apologizes. i know that it will always come down to that.
so today, on the second day of 30 days of giving thanks, i want to let you all know that i am grateful for my husband, and i love him, and all of his silly alter egos, very, very much. yes, even phillip (if you don’t know about phillip, that’s a story for a different day.)